Ah, life now. Life now is filled with little sleep and lots of to do lists. It's filled with multiple "jobs" and the word busy fills our mouths to often. It's filled with my husband working till midnight while I try and sleep next to him and overwhelming thoughts of when will this season end but also not wanting it to. I want this season of insane out of our minds non-stop on the go busy to end but I don't want the time of just me and Austin to end. It's strange. Again, I've said it a million and two times... This year we NEW was going to be balls to the wall insane (lol) and then we threw a baby in the mix and we are so close to finishing but often that's when it feels like the hardest. Finishing anything always takes work. Like a lot of work and it's always in the end you want to give up at least me, I like to give up right before unfortunately. It's also the most rewarding when you finish that season and can look back and be proud. Right now, it's hard to see any "fun" in our lives there's lots of very happy things and exciting moments and all things baby and huge blessings but right now life just feels overwhelming. But we can keep hope, because we've seen God in the past year in so many new ways and so many HUGE faithful ways. I never paid attention to this scripture until Austin and lately it's been stuck on my heart.
"God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
34 “Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes."
so that's my thoughts tonight. If your in a hard place know your almost there!
on a side note. Because I'm pretty proud I started... Ahem I'm attempting meal planning. I've been seeing so many mamas on Instagram talk about and figured why not! Last night I used the crock pot for the first time ever. I use to associate the crock pot with unhealthy meals... Until I realized that was stupid and I could replace any recipe full of "canned" items with fresh and it be in our level.
* Austin is completely cool eating vegetarian/vegan/raw with me but lately I've been trying to give her more protein. I can easily make any of these dishes vegatarian for me or I add meat for him.
- Monday: Creamy Chicken Tortilla Soup (vegetarian for me)
- Tuesday: Chicken Masala (vegetarian for me) also my favorite thing on the planet.
- Wednesday: Butternut Squash Mac & Cheese (this is actually vegan and one of Austins favorites)
- Thursday: Left overs or a big huge salad with garlic lemon dressing.
- Friday: Out to eat! My mom will be in town!!